Beware serious journal ahead.
gosh, It seem recently reality has been ebbing into my tiny world.
so I'm in grade 10, and I'm going to have to start looking a colleges soon, and decide what I want to do with my life...
And before now, I kinda bought into that "never give up"
and "you can still make a living doing what you love" thing.
so I figured I'd continue drawing and somehow It would turn out okay,
but unfortunately several articles here on deviant art,
and many recent "awakening" stories have gotten to me.
Its very hard to get published in anything,
and I wont be able to glide thru my choice art school on shiny animu desu-ness.
I'm not going to be able to create my own whatever right off the bat,
nor will I have much time to draw what I want, and actually live off of it.
I'm going to have to start to learn many different styles AND have some plain office drone experience.
just as our senior project for my specific art concentration is an internship,
I sure thought that sounded to booring....
But now I'm looking to the future.
I'd sure like to continue in my own reality for my final 2 years of free time....
but gosh, the future seems like its sneaking up on me.
sorry for the big ass paragraph, but I needed to vent.
I've felt very insecure as of late. I will continue to be the normal me, and draw what I love, promise.